problems. trials. hardships. even failures. these are what we go through in life. it is inevitable. it will come. as much as we enjoy the good and happy moments in life, we must know that bad times have to come by too.
i would like to share with us about what i personally learned recently... there is never such a thing called "failure" in my life.. i just call those times, "learning experiences". i fail many times, yes, and its a real bad "fall". but i have come to understand that at times, we must fall in order to fly. we can fall really bad, but be prepared for a great flight ahead. thats when we will learn by the mistakes made. if no one makes mistakes, that person is not doing anything in life. i am positive that a doer makes mistakes. in this way, we go through the hard way to learn a lesson, paying the price, the pain, the "fall"...just to learn a valuable lesson.
so that if anyone goes through the similar trial like we did, we can help them to avoid the mistakes we made in the past... because you can say," i have been there, done that."
bad situations. negative circumstances. problems. i am not talking bout things we never take responsibility in doing.. say if there's poor grades because we didn't study, then thats where we are wrong. but when we know we give our best, we do the right things...yet, situations still turn out negative... we must learn that it is beyond our control.
such as... you do our part to be a filial child, still, you get persecuted by our family. you make it out early, still we miss the bus, late and all... you are nice to others, love them, but get mistreated.. you do our best, still, "failed" in friendships, in studies, in ourselves..
know this my friends.. situations does not shape us. but how we respond to situations, shape us.
we all know we can never do anything about the situation. Its not bout what you can do. Its not much that you can do. since its beyond our control, we should trust God who's beyond us, to control it.
as a believer, i know that worship helps truckloads. worship can lift you from where you are, and take you to a "quiet place" where you begin to magnify God…to make the situation bigger than it is. meaning, to view the problem in a different way, to see it in a positive note, to overcome it. there’s not much else I could do, but worship...and I am still here despite life's problems.
one very vivid incident i could recall was the time when my mama got this really critical asthma attack... i was home alone with her, while the rest of my family members were not available. brother's at school, dad's at work. she was feeling really weak, i brought her to the clinic.. and the doc gave her this oxygen mask thingy to put on, told her to inhale as there's medicine in it. halfway through, her face turned pale, eyeballs rolled up, it turned purplish...then and there, i know she is struggling to grasp for her breath.. the medicine didnt help at all.... my mama struggled, and i was so afraid...afraid i might lose her anytime now.. i was so helpless...its a bad situation i could not do anything about.... she whispered these words,"daryl....i ... am ... dying.." my heart sank right that instant and the doctors got help from another nearby clinic, paramedics came, and an ambulance brought us to TTSH .. doctor said her brain lacks the oxygen and not sure when will she get up... you never want to hear smth like that from them.
all i could is to pray.. "God, i know you can take mama away anytime...because you are God. but please, not now.. there are so many things i wanted to tell her, and still want to spend more time with her, bring her closer to you...please, not now....i know you have to power to heal her... you can, God, please heal her... i am helpless, i can do nothing.... God, you love her more than i do.. amen."
i remembered making this prayer...i worshipped God... thats all i can do..
that night, mama recovered completely and today, she is doing well.
i know no matter how bad situations are, how tough the problems are in my life... i am not alone... and i worship the maker. worship...is a needful expression from the creation to the creator.
here is a song that i can identify with.. the words are here..you can read them first. its the "Desert Song" by Brooke Fraser & Jill McCloghry. i highlighted the key words in red. those words spoke right to my heart.
[Desert Song] This is my prayer in the desert When all that's within me feels dry This is my prayer in my hunger and need My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire In weakness or trial or pain There is a faith proved of more worth than gold So refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praise, I will bring praise No weapon formed against me shall remain I will rejoice, I will declare God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle When triumph is still on its way I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ So firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my life In every season You are still God I have a reason to sing I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest When favour and providence flow I know I'm filled to be emptied again The seed I've received I will sow.
indeed, prayer in the desert, fire, battle and lastly, harvest. in and out of season, we pray and worship. i have a reason to sing, worship and pray. we must worship him all the more when and especially we don't feel like doing so..
